Zigs is growing fast, like every child! At 10 months old, he’s now in 24 month clothes and seems to be close to crawling/walking. The waving, high five-ing etc. is a lot of fun and has made him appear to be more cute to strangers when we’re out and about. He particularly loves waving to dogs and trees.
I’m a couple of days away from stopping breastfeeding. Over the last month I’ve removed my feeds and we’re down to 3 bottles of ‘nanny care’ formula a day. With his cow’s milk intolerance, we struggled to get him to drink the prescribed formula for a long time. This new milk based on goats milk, has been a game changer and Zigs guzzles this like Ben guzzles a beer.
It’s a bitter sweet time for me as, after I was over the first month of painful breastfeeding, I’ve loved it! I can’t believe that my milk was his only source of food for the first 5 months of his life and that he’s had it right up to 10 months. Admittedly this wasn’t out of choice and if he had taken a bottle sooner, I would have stopped a couple of months back. I’m actually really glad it’s worked out this was as each feed really is a special moment, that eye contact and those cuddles. It’s been so special to me.
When I stop breastfeeding, technically I’ll be able to eat dairy again as this won’t affect Zigs anymore. Being off dairy has helped my colitis no end and I’ll have to try to remain really strict with myself. Italian cheese and wedding cake are my biggest downfalls so….we’ll see how that one goes!
Zigs currently sleeps through the night. This was another game changing moment when we took away the night feeding about 1 month ago. A couple of nights were rough going but he soon learnt he wouldn’t be fed if he woke up and now he roles over and goes back to sleep. Thank you sleep gods. Please don’t change anything because I’ve written this.
Last week I made the really hard decision not to go back to my role at Princess Alice Hospice. Julia, my lovely manager was really open to a flexible working request that I put in but after some serious deliberation, I decided not to commit to going back. This means I can focus on Zigs & Ben, my health and really push forward with Wiskow & White which seems to be at a massive turning point. It’s an exciting time but I am sad that I will not be rejoining my epic team and taking the Hospice marketing forward. The Hospice is such a special place and it will always be a really significant part of my life having worked there, and for personal reasons.
In just 3 weeks time, Zig, Ben & I leave for Italy! Another White Adventure and Zigs third time over there in his short little life. Poor boy, being dragged all over the place. This time we’re driving. My packing list is endless but space in our car isn’t. I’ll have to break it to Ben that we’ve got space for a really small bag of his clothes 😉
We’re really buzzing about this trip and the opportunity for Ben to take over as Zigs day care while I’m shipped off to work at some of our weddings. Truly eek-ing with excitement!
Overhanging all of this positivity and excitement is my silly heart which hasn’t been playing ball recently. I’ve had a few trips to hospital to get to grips with what’s happening in there and hopefully we’ll have everything under control by the time we leave for Italy. I’m sure that some sunshine and red wine will only help the situation!
This weekend sees the 8th anniversary of my brothers life saving heart transplant. 8 bloody years! He’s such a strong and positive man and someone I live completely in awe of.
I can’t help but feel that mum hood has really changed my perception of time and life’s possibilities. My life changes daily and I’m so happy with the fact that I have such little control over so many things. That’s something I never thought I’d be able to say!
Seeing Zigs grow and change by the day really gives a sense of how time moves on, how miraculous life really is and that life is short and precious. It’s made me want to jump at every opportunity and go for the life I really want us all to live. Life is a series of thousands of choices, how you deal with the things that are thrown at you, how you decide to live every single day. I choose to choose as best I can!